I stretched out my arms, frustrated at the outcome of today’s trials. My mind was not focused at all. There was only one thing that was directly occupying my thoughts. I needed to phone Janet. I can’t let someone else tell her that I am back.
Damn I haven’t seen her since she kicked me out of her hotel room five years ago. I closed my eyes and reminisced on the tender moment we shared. I do miss her, and we have talked but it hasn’t been the same. The friendship changed, we haven’t even spoken a word of that night, and it was amazing, I mean I was better than I imagined it to be. She felt so smooth and tasted so good. I just don’t know what I did wrong, I mean it was not like I was the only one who wanted it to go further that night. Maybe she feels like she made a huge mistake! Every time I try to mention it she just cuts me off! Damn that woman sure knows how to run cold on a brother!
How do I tell her? I don’t even know how she will feel, I don’t even know where to start! The last time we spoke I know I should have told her, but I just couldn’t get the words out. It’s not like we have anything romantic or had anything romantic going on. It was just that one night, and I haven’t forgotten it ever since, yeah it was special but she has made it clear that she does not want to discuss what happened, and so I can only oblige her request.
How do I even tell her just in case she reacts irrational? I do not want to keep this from her any longer and I know she is going to be angry at me for it already!
I'm going to call her tonight, maybe I’ll go round and visit her, take her out for a drink…
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